I am sure that you have read the title of this post. While viewing it, I am sure that you used the exclamation points as a happy thing. Well, they are not symbols of a pleasant emotion. I am sad, and have been for the past two days. I am no longer happy to go to school everyday: I go because I must, but I cannot wait until I step off the bus and travel home.
I have realized why I am sad. I just realized that I'm boring at school, which bores me. However, after school, I am anything but. I'm living a double life if you will, but because of some perverse reason, I cannot manage to bring more vivaciousness(if that's even a word) from one life to the other. No matter how hard I try, I just cannot break through the invisible barrier that separates the different parts of myself. I have already imprinted a version of myself: BORING.
I never realized this before, well, I did, I guess. I just accepted it. But after my trip to the Queen's country(England), I became terribly distraught at the truth. It seems I have so little time to reform.
To new start, and a happier life!
. . . Hopefully.
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First, it is vivaciousness. You are not a failure. Take it from the girl who has to have a dictionary on her at all times. (The sentence makes me sound like such a nerd. Anyway, I am one)
ReplyDeleteSecond. You are not the only one who leads a double life! I don't think anybody knows the real me! Ha! And I will not enlighten you!
That almost almost partially makes mr feel better
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